Our time is borrowed and spent too freely.

fingertrace @ 2004-12-27T11:47:00

2004-12-27T16:50:00Z

I'm moving for the last time. Add me if you want.

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It's pretty weird how I have that username and I don't even live there plus I haven't even been there. I just took it from a Thursday song.

fingertrace @ 2004-12-25T17:22:00

2004-12-25T22:29:55Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS</b></span>!!!!

Hahaha I actually took the time to do that, in rich-text mode of course.
This is what I got:
+Lullaby by Chuck Palahnuik
+$15 gift card from Best Buy
+These shoes that I really wanted
+$50 from my dad
+$20 from each of my friend's parents
+FOB IS TOMORROW!!!

fingertrace @ 2004-12-18T22:37:00

2004-12-19T03:37:38Z

My internet broke for 2 weeks and I was dying.
Taste of Chaos isn't coming here, Epitaph tour is on a Monday, FOB in 8 more days.
So now I need to know what's been going on with everybody?

To make you laugh is all I want.

2004-12-05T18:50:21Z

So for the whole time that I didn't update, a lot has been going on lately. On November 24, 2004 it was Genny's birthday so after school Mel, Jill, Nicole & I all went to her house, but before that we went to Waldbaum's to get cake frosting and soda. Then we got to her house, chilled a bit with music on and Genny went to go get her video camera to watch old videos. We watched this one when Brian was at Allison's house and they were dying his hair, oh man it was hilarious and we were trying to find these other ones we taped, but we saw Claire's (Genny's sister) audition videos for something on Nick. It went something like this: "My name is Claire Chapin and I am 11 years old from Queens, New York. Some of my favorite songs are Usher - Yeah, Alicia Keys - You Don't Know My Name, Sierra - Goodies, and Ashlee Simpson - Pieces Of Me. I like playing board games with my dad." Oh man she had to do that at least ten times, it was so funny, I almost died and then she made a music video, hahahahahh I need to see it again. So after that, we made Genny a cake and we chilled like old times.

Genny's mom left us money for pizza and the theme was Little Mermaid.

LOOK AT HOW AWESOME THOSE CANDLES ARE.

Mmmm cake mix.

Jill's the next Martha Stewart.

Yes those are purple penises on the side, haha, it wasn't my idea alright.

I rule for getting this picture.

Mel eats a penis.

No explanation needed.

Jill drinks beer.

Mel was so obsessed with the fact that Genny's mom takes karate at Tiger Schulman's. This is such old news, but I had two Thanksgivings in a row. First one was on 11/25 which was held at my aunt's house (dad's side) which was usual tradition crap, but we had Chinese food?? and turkey, but I guess it was alright. Second one was on 11/26 and it was at my aunt's apartment building in the city (mom's side) near Battery Park and it was so freaking pretty, the river view was so nice. My grandfather came from Hong Kong to stay there cause there is something wrong with his eyes and my cousin, who graduated from Yale like a year ago cooked food. My grandfather was telling some story about how when he was young and how he ran an industry and he told us that he wanted my brother & I to go to a good college and be like my cousin. He also gave us each two-hundred bucks. After dinner, we stayed for awhile and I finally got to see most of School of Rock and yeah, I'm slow on movies so it sucks since I don't have cable. My aunt also then gave us one-hundred each so basically we both had three-hundred total obviously. I had to give 100 to my mom for savings and I need to spend maybe 100 or less on Christmas presents.

fingertrace @ 2004-11-03T22:33:00

2004-11-04T03:40:33Z

I'm so fucking lazy, I need to get my ass up, plus I need to get out more and meet more new people.

I basically give and give and when there's nothing left, people don't appreciate what I do for them so all of these things I have are basically one-sided cause I'm the only person who is willing to try and give up everything I have.

You know what, I'm taking a break from this. I'll be on Greatestjournal, though and you can talk to me on AIM if you know what my screen name is.

Hopefully I'll be back and feeling better, so don't remove me, but I'll still be reading and commenting on your entries.

fingertrace @ 2004-10-31T12:04:00

2004-10-31T17:06:36Z

Happy Halloween!

Fuck, if I don't do anything today, it will be my only year I haven't done anything and I really don't want that happening? If I do go trick-o-treating, there is no one to go with, plus I don't have a costume.

Oh yeah,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRANK IERO!

Calling your name, hoping for something to wash these dreams of you away.

2004-10-23T01:51:36Z

I'm back, technically, I wasn't on a hiatus, the router for the modem just stopped working on Sunday so my dad had to get a new one and he fixed it on Wednesday.

Jennie, (angry_little_me) and Tranette, there's another FOB show the same day as the Irving Plaza one, it's just at 1PM. Any idea if you wanna go? Hahaha FOB twice in one day = fucking amazing alright.

I went to Manhattan with Mel today to try to get the Used tickets. Sold out, obviously and I'm not surprised.

MCR is gonna be on Daily Download on Tuesday, but I have school, dammit but hopefully I will meet up with Margaret to hand out stuff. Hm, I think I'm going to the Homecoming game for my school just to say I've been to one. What's the point of homecoming anyway? I don't remember..anyhow, I'm doing pretty bad in school, too. I need to work my ass off for everything now, seriously.

My brother saw the Grudge today and he said it was fucking freaky, I went to the website and it was like some game thing, and I wasn't looking or anything but that thing was so fucking freaky. You had to type in your name, there were doors and all, you had to click on them, and then I died haha. "THE CURSE HAS CLAIMED ANOTHER VICTIM." That shit was really scary alright I am a wuss :[

When the day is blue, I'll sit here and wonder about you.

2004-10-15T22:33:05Z

I've just enough had it with this place.

It's quite fun when you have a mom who lurks over your shoulder looking at everything you do on the Internet and who thinks Livejournal / Greatestjournal is some sort of dating service. That and her thinking that I'm gonna get a cold just cause there's water on my pant leg. Did I mention having no one to talk to about anything at all sucks, too?

A long hiatus sounds good right about now.

fingertrace @ 2004-10-05T22:04:00

2004-10-06T02:19:02Z

Life is just fucking great. So today I complained about how I hate Spirit Week (this whole week where people where the school colors, pajama day, all that crap) and then this girl was like, "I hate negative people." I WASN'T EVEN BEING NEGATIVE, I was stating a point. And now everyone is calling me negative and rubbing it in my face. "Hey Michelle want some positivity?" "Yeah..you are."

I'm realizing I should be more dependent amongst myself because when worse comes to worse...you know the deal. I wish I wasn't much of a boring person and I wish I had topics to talk about. Maybe it isn't me, anyway. Sorry if this mood affects everyone, just don't let it, okay?

Excuse me while I fucking fall apart.

Fuck off. I'll update about the FFTL show soon.

Do you remember what the music meant?

2004-10-01T02:43:32Z

I hate when people act normally around you in class but then when they see you in the hallways or outside of school, they're constantly trying to ignore you.

I still have to tell my mom about the damn FFTL show. If I tell her on Saturday, chances are she'll bitch and I probably won't go. I'll try to catch her in a good mood, but lately it's fucking hopeless. I was doing my Latin homework before and talking on AIM at the same time so she goes and bitches at me saying that I'm giving answers out so I said I wasn't and she goes "Then why are you chatting? Get offline." What the fuck, it's cable, you're always online. She just bitched at me again for giving the answers to someone cause I was looking at my freakin' binder and doing my homework. She then goes, "Stop doing your homework so late." Okay first of all, my brother gets to do his homework late and he doesn't get bitched at. I'm the fucking bad guy here and I'm so sick of it. She always wants me to be like her when she was my age, little mrs. perfect, "I always did my homework, I didn't talk to my friends on the phone, I told my mom to not bother me when I was." I DON'T FUCKING CARE, I HATE when she does that, and I told her to stop comparing a long time ago and she's like, "I don't." She's obviously bullshitting, ok.

I just want something unbelieveably amazing to happen to me so I can just brag about it to other people and they'll be so damn jealous cause that's how I've been feeling lately. Crushes do suck, but at least you have something to look forward to when you go to school. Everyone has someone, but me and I kind of miss it.

I'm losing my touch.

You don't like making entrances alone.

2004-09-26T06:28:59Z

Sometimes I just like to show off, is that so bad? Ignore the mess and yeah the other ticket is in my envelope.

Seven days.

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This poison's my intoxication..

2004-09-23T02:15:08Z

This girl Selena in my Math class is so fucking dumb-blonde stupid. My Math teacher has a necklace and it's in Hebrew, but it looks like the Pi symbol so she goes, "What's that thing around your neck? Is that the Pi symbol?!" Hahah so then he tells this whole story behind it, how the original one was stolen so his wife got him a new one for his 21st anniversary. After he finishes the story added with unnecessary details, this other girl Carolina goes, "You're JEWISH?!" Oh man what a fucking twat, hahaha. I hate her and Selena. As a matter of a fact, I hate a lot of people in my school. I could list them and I'd probably have at least 25+.

Yeah I'm really scornful, if you didn't notice that.

Julia can suck my cock, is your little friend REALLY Adam Lazarra's cousin? Dunno, maybe cause there aren't many Lazarra's in the world? I just did a search on whitepages.com, there are like five that live in NY. Could be possible, but I choose not to believe her. She fucking blames me cause the crew doesn't even hang out with her when she decided to ditch us freshman year for her 22 year old boyfriend.

Hung out with Daniel 4 afterschool today with Mel & Genny and got food at Burger King. FREE REFILLS. We were probably the loudest ones there, but it's all fucking good.

PS who wants a Gmail account? I have 6 invites.

Who told you love was fleeting?

2004-09-19T03:09:44Z

I finally saw Garden State and hell, it was pretty good. Sam made me think about a lot of things..and how I should change some things about me as a person, but not for other people, but for myself.

I'm trying to keep my head up for some things, but you all know how that goes.

I'm addicted to "Take It Away" by the Used. Ah their old stuff wasn't that great, but I have a feeling their new stuff is gonna be better.

Tell all the boys and girls from school to keep breaking all the rules.

2004-09-16T02:46:01Z

I got sunburnt during Disneyworld and now my skin is peeling. During Math, I was just picking at it cause it's fun. But hey I'm a fucking potato now haha. There are like all these brown spots and it's just not fun to look at. But I like to annoy people and go, "Wanna see something scary?" Haha.

My Chemistry and History teachers are strict as hell. I mean my History teacher is Mrs. Trumbull from Matilda and she keeps repeating everything she says every five seconds. Man, most of the kids in the class keep making fun of me, haha. Nerd.

I just want high school to be over. Haha afterschool, Genny, Mel and I are always waiting for gothemo kid, it's pretty funny.

It's also funny how the people you'd least expect listen to you the most.

This mask of glass is what I choose to wear.

2004-09-14T01:55:03Z

Today was the first day of school and it fucking blew.

Okay so I got there in time, the Q28 screwed me over. Met up with Mel and Genny at the auditorium, Mel gave me a signed Senses Fail sticker. We waited in there while they called people to get their stuff (metro card and program card) by last name order. All the new "freshmores" are exact replicas of everyone else, it's pretty sad. Okay so Mel told me that there's this kid that looks emo or some shit that him and Genny thought I would like? Ok, anyway, I saw him and he looks goth and emo. He has nice hair though. But I have a feeling he'll be sucked into the Adan pool (Adan is this really popular kid, I used to be friends with him but got sick of him cause he's a fucking asshole). After getting my stuff, we stayed for awhile so I missed four classes, but it's okay.

I start 2nd period and end 10th (8:49 - 4:12). Bullshit. Anyway, they gave me Required Art, but no AP European History. I'm in Honors everything except for Swimming and Math.

Beginning Swimming: Same thing as last year, I decided to take it again cause I can't swim for shit. There are two seniors that are helping out and they think we're all freshmen. Botards. One of them was cracking jokes though, some of them were funny. Most of the kids in my class are boys though. Icky...

Latin 3 Honors: Well same teacher as before. He's still annoying, old and senile. The main thing was the fucking kid, Mairaj (who I really hate) was there and he got a new hairstyle. He belongs in the 70s, but everyone else was different. Except me, of course. I looked the same, hah.

Art/Humanities: I have a feeling I'm going to hate this class. The only good thing is that I have like six field trips during the whole thing. Mairaj is in this class with me also. I know no one and I don't plan on talking with anyone. All the fucking preppy gangster kids are there.

English 3 Honors: Nicole and Cindy are there so that's good. Ugh, MAIRAJ is also there again so that makes it worse. Keri is there, too..anyway, we had to fill out this personal survey, blahblah and we might not have her as a permanent teacher.

I was supposed to go to History, but I left with Mel, Genny and Amy. Went to Burger King and laughed a whole bunch. Well at least there's no school on Thursday and Friday, thanks to the Jews :]

....

2004-09-12T16:19:49Z

Sorry for not writing anything about being gone for four days. On Tuesday night, I was going to, but my mom was being a big bitch. I was gone cause I was at Disneyworld for four days with Genny, her sister and mom.

Update about it later.

fingertrace @ 2004-09-07T11:42:00

2004-09-07T15:43:21Z

So..comment and add me.

I'm thinking about making this friends only. Hm, maybe.